Running on Empty

I, like every other girl in the universe, struggle with my weight.  I'm constantly hoping to lose, to tighten, going on diets and crazy workout routines.  Lately, I've been trying for the whole "lifestyle change."  I'm counting calories (which doesn't really seem like something that's sustainable forever...) and I'm doing the Couch 2 5K program.  Needless to say, it all is very overwhelming.

The whole food thing is probably one of the hardest parts for me.  I've definitely had some issues in the past.  And I'm not one of those girls who gets really skinny and stops eating when I'm stressed.  Quite the opposite, in fact :)

Generally, I eat pretty healthy.  I love to cook, and I honestly would never make something that was super bad for me.  I do have a sweet tooth though, and ice cream is my weakness.  I would be lying if I said Keith and I haven't gone out and gotten ice cream like 3 times this last week.  But I went grocery shopping on Monday, and I got a few sweet bites to hopefully thwart that habit.  I guess it's really just about setting yourself up for success.  So I'm trying!

As for the working out part, I am not a runner.  I really, really don't like running.  It takes every ounce of strength I have to get up in the morning and get out there.  Is that normal?  I feel like everyone else seems to just LOVE working out.  Or at least like it a tiny bit.  I keep hoping that I'll start enjoying it.  In the meantime, I'm going to keep at it...I guess we'll see...

Despite having bad days (ice cream days?) and bad workouts, I'm going to keep at it.  I don't have a super specific goal.  I, like most women, know a number I'd like to see on the scale, but I'm trying not to make that my everything.  I really (cliche I know) want to FEEL better.  I want to run further and faster.  I want to find balance.  Because that's really what it's all about...BALANCE.